1 May 2009 1.47pm

currently listening to this song...NEYO MAD
quite nice...
lyrics got some coincidence with my life journey..
some la...not all la...but i think many also been thru this situation before...
rated it 4 out of 5 stars...

today sotong back bp got sms me...its 8.55am
wow...she juz sleep about a few hour then rush back bp already...
i think she is very tired...
but what kind of bf is that...haiz...
i have no position to say him...
as long as she is happy...
im happy...

i almost crazy today....
im very fan and frustrated...
i didnt tell anyone..
because nobody can help me...
even sotong...
its natural..
i don't like say my feelings toward others...
mayb thats why all my relationship don't work well ba...

many people ask me...are you happy now...
i didnt answer at all...
im not answering not because i dont know how to answer...
but its because even i tell them...they also ask me to give up...
i noe what im doing now may not give me the happiness i want...
mayb it will hurt me more...
but the fact now is...
only she is the one that cheer me up when im down...
she is the one that accompany me day and night...
she is the one that encourage me when im afraid...
that is enough for not making me giving up...
She meant very much to me...

time passes very fast...
im still pursuing my life...
should i or should i not...
i don't know...

life is like gambling...
just as a person said...
there is always a chance if you try it...
im trying now...
God...please help me out of this misery...

Please Give me a chance again...
i promise i will be good again...
i promise