10 January 2010 2.46am

wewewe...
start it all over again...

didnt blog for a long time...
this place seem familiar...
im lazy...
im busy...
bla...bla...blaa....

same old stance...

today keep it short...

keong kan la...
if want come say it in front of me...
don't think im small size...
easy to bully...

that's all
night all...

2010

Its a new year again...

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this year it's a bit different than the previous...
because this year i'm alone...

didn't celebrate as much as i can...
all i do is just waiting at home...

damn...
i hate waiting so much now...
especially today...

but what past had past...
i don't want to talk about it anymore...

new year ahead of me...
lots of new things waiting me to explore and experience...

my new year wish..
1.my mum and dad
2.my family
3.sotong
4.my friends
5.my career
6.my health

and most of all...
i wish i won't be lonely again this new year...

hope god hear my prayers...
thanks..



new road ahead elmo...
although its a rough one...
i will take up the challenge...

Im Not Emo...I Copied this from a guy~~lol

Used to be a trick, used to think I was big, used to think it was the right image to hold, but little did I know I was wrong.

I didn't see her for who she was, my love for her was there but I didn't know it at the time, blinded by my image, blinded by the light, blinded by my own stupidity, so blind I don't deserve to even lay my eyes on her.

I wish I grasped what could have been mine. I wish I wasn't so scared to fall in love, but I ain't too scared to fall in love, its love that is scared to let me be loved, like I don't deserve to be loved.

I see myself listening to slow jams more than ever. I see myself avoiding other girls. I know she is the one. I can see so clearly as I am one year out of our little relationship.

I look back and wonder how I fell in love with her. I realise it was her smile, her voice, her modesty, her petiteness, her charm, her gentle approach, the way she knew me like a book even though she had so little time to read me.

The fact that she knows that I've changed, the fact she knows I am like no other boy. I realise that it was the slow jams that made me change, the fact that I cried for her and she still does not know, the PAIN!

I have tried to win her back. She knows how I feel. I wish I was with her now instead of writing this pointless prose.

The plain fact is that you wont understand this, you cant even help me. You probably think I'm sprung, you probably think I got problems, you probably think she is a bitch, you might even think I'm just a teenager in love. But this is not no petty puppy love this is real and I don't think I will let her go, but ... the day I hold her will be the day I burn these words.

7 December 2009 10.38am

What a boring day today...
nothing to do much actually...

countless night i have restless sleep...
due to the cough i been thru...
its been a week now...
but it shows no progression..

its quite a long time...
that i didn't pen down something on this page...

my life is like a roller coaster recently...
up and down, up and down...
but i have get use to it since a long time ago...
so actually nothing shattered my hope for now...

have loads of things in my mind...
but its not the right time to present it out...
i have learned how to forget...
finally...

should be saying something inspirational...
but ended up saying craps...

lol...
maybe for another few days...
wait until i get into a better condition...
i will write something interesting...

that's all for now...

!@#@$#%^&&*()0371826341563901-34-98&^%$#@$%^(*&)_

again again and again...

fuck you...

29 October 2009 1.59am

First of all..
happy birthday to my dear cousin again...
hope you enjoy your great day yesterday...
although we are far apart...
but we are close at heart...
haha....kinda gay...

unfortunately i am going to keep my blog short today...
no mood for typing...
because of the freaking badminton session yesterday...
damnit..it was tiring...
but most of the part..i was enjoying it...

since i come back from kl...
my life has totally changed...
responsibility comes the first in everything i do...
although it was hard to get over with...
but i believe
with some patience and advice...
i may overcome this obstacles...

countless night i can't have a good rest...
countless night i can't stop thinking about it...
countless night i can't sleep comfortable...

but in these countless night...
it shows me that...
i am very lucky...

to have you by my side...
thanks...

and to my gang...
gong chio nia...
mai du lan okay...

happy go lucky~~

If I didn't met you, I wouldn't like you..
If I didn't liked you, I wouldn't love you..
If I wouldn't love you, I wouldn't miss you..
But I did, I do and I will..

I can't talk to you anymore..
it's not that I am mad at you..
it's just that when I talk to you..
I realize how much I love you..
and when I realize how much I love you..
I realize I can't have you and that..
makes me love you even more..

I make the most of what comes and the least of what goes.

I'm not supposed to love you..
I'm not supposed to care..
I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there..
I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you're doing..
but I can't help it, cause I'm in love with you..

Pain is inevitable..
Suffering is optional..

Those who do not know how to weep with their whole heart..
don't show how to laugh either..

Always do what is right..
This will surprise some people and astonish the rest..

Sometimes the person you really need..
is the one you didn't think you wanted..

Me, I'm scared of everything, I'm scared of who I am, what I saw, what I did, but most of all I am scared of walking out of this room and never feeling for the rest of my life, the way I feel when I'm with you.

If you're going to make me cry, at least be there to wipe away the tears..

Everyone tells me I should forget about you, you don't deserve me..
They're right, you don't deserve me, but I deserve you..

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew..

It takes a couple seconds to say Hello..
but forever to say Goodbye..

Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him..

Moving on is simple..
it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult..

There's this place in me where your finger tips still rest..
your kisses still linger and your whispers softly echo..
It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me..

I wonder, when you look into my eyes and watch my heart shatter, does it break your heart too, even crack it a little bit?

To the person who are reading this,
no matter you are a gal or a boy,
kindly take notice,

don't accept if you don't want to hurt,
don't hurt if you already accept,
don't accept if you already decide,
don't decide when you can't see the future..