Oh! Sotong, I am but a fool,
Darling I love you tho' you treat me cruel,
You hurt me and you made me cry
But if you leave me I will surely die.

Darling there will never be another
Cause I love you so,
don't ever leave me,
Say you'll never go
I will always want you for my sweetheart
No matter what you do
Oh! Sotong, I'm so in love with you.

Oh, Sotong...
Darling..

this is for you when you really made up your mind...

2 October 2009 1.40am

Earthquake...
does anyone feel it?

i didn't feel it...
thousands of life have lost...

Philippines Flood
Samoa Tsunami
Sumatra Earthquake

the world is going to end is it?

live everyday like we are dying...

hope...
i don't think there is any left...

what can government do about this?
nothing...
the wrath of god is so powerful...
no human can withstand it...

is this a punishment for us?
for not treasuring our mother earth?

SOS earth...
is it too late for action...
2012 is it true?

now all of us is thinking the same thing...
End of the world...
?

yes or no?

29 September 2009 3.06pm

Thanks to all the greeting...
thank you all...

I'm really happy...

this year...
it's not the same...
with last year...

when think of last year...
it let me remind of myself...
that one year has passed...
it let me remind of myself...
not to think about it again...
it let me remind of myself...
i must carry on my life...

this year...
i must thanks to a person...

she do a lot just for this day...
although she felt she did nothing...

but to me...
it's means much more than anything...

and to my friends...
thanks for celebrating my bday at the very last minute...
i will never forget the person that push my face onto the cake...
wait next year...
it's your turn...

and to my buddies...
thanks for all the wishes...
thanks for all the support...

and thanks to sotong...
without you...
all these thing wont happen...

thank you so much...
i owe you one...
thanks...

27 September 2009 2.26

Today...

i just know...
there is no one to be trust...
except my parents...

damn...

everyday...when human wake up...
they will at least make one lie up...
so do i...
that is normal lie...
but still lie...
depends on what situation...

now...
i really don't know who more i can trust...

anyway...
Happy Birthday to my dear cousin...
you are not here...
if not i sure sing song let you hear...

23 September 2009 3.05am

My heart is fucking pain...

I can feel the pain...

It's so painful...

Damn...i wish i could stop my heart now...

every stomp makes it pain...

every breath i take makes me pain...

every laugh i make makes me pain...

Damn,

please stop it...

after all this pain...

its worth it...

i hope you really mean it...

don't make my heart pain for nothing...

you steady, i steady...

that is my promise to you...

i treat you as my friend...

don't let me treat you as my enemy...

whether i will live...

lets see if i am able to go thru tonight...

18 September 2009 4.07pm

hehe...
nothing to do around office today...

and i think of this...

Is it so easy to forget someone?

While it takes a minute to have a crush on someone...
an hour to like someone...
and a day to love someone...
it takes a lifetime to forget someone...

".... it takes a life time to forget someone...."
I have only one life to live... to use it to forget the time we had?
I have only one life to love... to use it to hate?
I have only one life to...to do the things i love to do...

I will not to use my one life to forget and to hate...

I want to remember all the time we had...
I want to love as much as i can...

I want to use my one life to remember someone...
not to forget someone...

just as a story i heard before...

i never carve your name on the sand..because the wind will blow it
i never write your name in the paper..because the rubber can rub it..

i remember your name in my mind...because memories can never be wiped away...

18 September 2009 1.25am

Suddenly...

feel don't want to have my birthday again this year...
nothing special actually...
just a birthday...

sometimes i wonder if i don't have birthday...
would it be nice?
but without birthday there is no me in this world...

the same feel come back again this time...

got gain got loss...

hate this kind of feeling very much...

so i rather be alone when my birthday reach...
it's much more happier than be in the crowd...

but at the same time...
i wish i also can have my birthday...
using my way...
weird way...haha

i never cut a cake personally for me since i was small...
really...
but this is not a reason that i hate birthday okay...
there are other reason that i hate my birthday..

i still remember when i was small...
i always see my friend they all have birthday party...
i also wished i have one too...
but mum say...
children make what party...

then grow up already...
wish to have birthday party at my house...
but think of it...
its quite troublesome...
need to trouble mum to cook and clean all those mess left behind...

then at the age 21...
this birthday is the most memorable birthday i ever had...
but what pass is pass...

i can say that from i start gaining knowledge...
i never had a good birthday...
bad things comes at my birthday...
but its okay...
after so many years...
I'm getting used to it...

for this year wish...
i have given it to a person i love...
so this year i don't have any wish left...

so i decided to use next year wish...
i wish my bro will get well soon...
i want to have fun with you again bro...
miss you...
wait me okay...
i am coming this Saturday...

looking at the sky...
gazing at the stars...
hallucinating...
wondering...

weird hobby isn't it...

countdown...
10 days...to my hellday...