29 September 2009 3.06pm

Thanks to all the greeting...
thank you all...

I'm really happy...

this year...
it's not the same...
with last year...

when think of last year...
it let me remind of myself...
that one year has passed...
it let me remind of myself...
not to think about it again...
it let me remind of myself...
i must carry on my life...

this year...
i must thanks to a person...

she do a lot just for this day...
although she felt she did nothing...

but to me...
it's means much more than anything...

and to my friends...
thanks for celebrating my bday at the very last minute...
i will never forget the person that push my face onto the cake...
wait next year...
it's your turn...

and to my buddies...
thanks for all the wishes...
thanks for all the support...

and thanks to sotong...
without you...
all these thing wont happen...

thank you so much...
i owe you one...
thanks...

27 September 2009 2.26

Today...

i just know...
there is no one to be trust...
except my parents...

damn...

everyday...when human wake up...
they will at least make one lie up...
so do i...
that is normal lie...
but still lie...
depends on what situation...

now...
i really don't know who more i can trust...

anyway...
Happy Birthday to my dear cousin...
you are not here...
if not i sure sing song let you hear...

23 September 2009 3.05am

My heart is fucking pain...

I can feel the pain...

It's so painful...

Damn...i wish i could stop my heart now...

every stomp makes it pain...

every breath i take makes me pain...

every laugh i make makes me pain...

Damn,

please stop it...

after all this pain...

its worth it...

i hope you really mean it...

don't make my heart pain for nothing...

you steady, i steady...

that is my promise to you...

i treat you as my friend...

don't let me treat you as my enemy...

whether i will live...

lets see if i am able to go thru tonight...

18 September 2009 4.07pm

hehe...
nothing to do around office today...

and i think of this...

Is it so easy to forget someone?

While it takes a minute to have a crush on someone...
an hour to like someone...
and a day to love someone...
it takes a lifetime to forget someone...

".... it takes a life time to forget someone...."
I have only one life to live... to use it to forget the time we had?
I have only one life to love... to use it to hate?
I have only one life to...to do the things i love to do...

I will not to use my one life to forget and to hate...

I want to remember all the time we had...
I want to love as much as i can...

I want to use my one life to remember someone...
not to forget someone...

just as a story i heard before...

i never carve your name on the sand..because the wind will blow it
i never write your name in the paper..because the rubber can rub it..

i remember your name in my mind...because memories can never be wiped away...

18 September 2009 1.25am

Suddenly...

feel don't want to have my birthday again this year...
nothing special actually...
just a birthday...

sometimes i wonder if i don't have birthday...
would it be nice?
but without birthday there is no me in this world...

the same feel come back again this time...

got gain got loss...

hate this kind of feeling very much...

so i rather be alone when my birthday reach...
it's much more happier than be in the crowd...

but at the same time...
i wish i also can have my birthday...
using my way...
weird way...haha

i never cut a cake personally for me since i was small...
really...
but this is not a reason that i hate birthday okay...
there are other reason that i hate my birthday..

i still remember when i was small...
i always see my friend they all have birthday party...
i also wished i have one too...
but mum say...
children make what party...

then grow up already...
wish to have birthday party at my house...
but think of it...
its quite troublesome...
need to trouble mum to cook and clean all those mess left behind...

then at the age 21...
this birthday is the most memorable birthday i ever had...
but what pass is pass...

i can say that from i start gaining knowledge...
i never had a good birthday...
bad things comes at my birthday...
but its okay...
after so many years...
I'm getting used to it...

for this year wish...
i have given it to a person i love...
so this year i don't have any wish left...

so i decided to use next year wish...
i wish my bro will get well soon...
i want to have fun with you again bro...
miss you...
wait me okay...
i am coming this Saturday...

looking at the sky...
gazing at the stars...
hallucinating...
wondering...

weird hobby isn't it...

countdown...
10 days...to my hellday...

16 September 2009 3.46am

Money or Dignity?

this two things is the most important factor in our life...
which one does you choose?

Money...
is it really so important?
it does...
without money...
the world can't go around...

Dignity...
is it important too?
yes it does...
without dignity...
who dare to trust and believe you...

there is a saying..

Money 没钱就没办法活下去...

Dignity 陵园死也不要没面子...

which one is more important?

actually the key for those two is

Balance 平衡..
Honest 誠實..
Satisfy 滿足..

Human are a very intelligent organism...
they can change abruptly depending on the current situation...

so...
which one does you choose?
Money or dignity?

or you choose to be
Balance, honest and self-satisfy?

14th September 20xx 11.59.59

Happy Birthday sotong...

i know you must be angry with me...
because i didn't wish you yet...
it's not that i don't want too...
but it's too risky...
i don't want you to be unhappy okay...
please understand ya...

I think i maybe the last one to wish you this...
ngam ngam 11.59.59 really last minutes...

okay...
here is my wish for you la...

wish you happy everyday...
wish you healthy everyday...
wish you pretty always...
wish you get what you want...
wish your wish come true...
wish you don't have any stress...
wish you can love someone you really love...
wish you can find someone you really like...

very kap hor...like uncle already...

i choose to stay at here also for a reason...
if this blog keeps going...

that means i won't forget to wish you every year..

and you can't be angry with me anymore...

hahaha...

anyway...
hope you have a nice birthday every year...

let me took a picture of you smiling...




from:
stupid elmo who miss her sotong so much.. :P

Bro..dude..kakis

Bro...

i lost count on how long we knew each other already...
but i always have the feeling we just knew each other yesterday...
everything was so fresh in my mind...

still remember the 1st time we meet at school?
still remember the 1st time we go peng lin eat?
still remember the 1st time we whole gang go play dota?
still remember the 1st time we all go clubbing?
still remember the 1st time we sat at the balcony chatting bout girls?
still remember the 1st time we chat till morning?
still remember the 1st time we chat at msn talking about craps?

do you still remember my bro...
this is all the good memories we had together...

don't give up...
be strong...
you can do it...
i giving all my support for you...

i know its painful...
i know its suffering...
although my sickness cant be compare to yours...
but i know the feeling...

don't be afraid my friend
we are all by your side no matter what...

Fanch...
you can do it...
just believe in god...
and believe in miracle...

6 September 2009 9.57pm

Painful..
Worried..
Sad..
Depressed..
Insomnia..
Angry..

6 words for today..
1 me in this world..

can 1 people be include in this 6 things at a same time?

human are really great...
god also..

take these thing away from me please...

1 September 2009 2.59am

what a catch...
what a catch...
and all i think love is the way...
i know that you are the one...
so,
who gave up on you?

its a good phrase...
and i understand it my own way...

although i can't have you...
but its enough that i can have for a moment...

although i can't care you...
but its enough that i care before...

although i can't love you...
but its more than enough that i have tried before...

but there is a thing i can do now...
that is miss you..
everyday
every moment
every single second
that is the only thing i can do now...

and i really grateful that god give me a life to do it...

no matter where i go...
no matter what i do...
there is a person...
as precious as my life...

i will adore as i adore my life...
that person is you...

my sotong